Day 4 - Family melting moments

The good and bad in my life includes:-

• Living away from all my family from 17 years of age
• Meeting Dan
• Giving birth
• Serious car accident
• Fractured skull (not mine)
• Family & friends
• First days of school (letting go)
• Independence (letting go #2)
• Marriage (letting go #3)
• Grandchildren
• Fear and Pain (letting go #4)
• Happy ever after

Well sounds absolutely boring but over the next week or so I am going to go through these moments......

Family values.....the basis of who we are starts young

So much of who you are is based on how you were brought up and then what decisions you make as an adult in relation to allowing your past to control the future.....that is easier said than done as most people resort to the primal basics under pressure.

I always wonder why a person stops picking their nose when seated in their car at a traffic light when they notice you are watching. Instant meltdown...they don't know you so why should they care? It's that little voice inside their brain that has remained since they were 3 years old 'Johnny! Get that finger out of your nose!!!!' Funny thing is, why are our nostrils the exact size of our index finger?

Now this guy may be taking the finger up the nose just way too far!!!

My emotional and physical meltdowns started quite young in my life and although I am not going to go into detail about them I know I had to make some hard and fast decisions as I got older as to whether they would control the rest of my life.

I believed I wasn't going to let these things affect me long term but deep down they have. I am aware that I hide behind a facade of confidence and maybe to a degree I hide behind my body which is more generous than the good Lord had planned!

I may be a little frightened to see myself as I truly am and hiding like this allows me to protect myself. Still ignorance isn't always bliss......

Day 2 - Third century and my heart still melts

Today is our 33rd wedding anniversary. That's 12045 days, or 289080 hours or 17,344,800 minutes, but whose counting! The thing is, I am not sure if everyone feels like me after this many years?

I still get extremely excited when Mr C comes home at night and I love waking up on Saturday morning and having brunch together with no clocks to watch. I still feel rather youthful about our relationship and Mr C is my best friend.

I can feel lonely in a crowd but never feel alone when I am with him. That's not to say we don't have moments but overall I feel like life has been so good to me and the love we share doesn't always come to everyone who takes the path of marriage. I could live my life just with him......

He melts my heart

A bit of history but not too much......

Let's start at today and I will go back to pick up the pieces that have caused melting moments and hopefully piece them all together. I am absolutely a person who has big plans but doesn't always see them through to the very end.

I know many of my Mum's melting moments occurred when I decided to clean my bedroom up and would pull out every drawer, cupboard and contents of my wardrobe to ensure I did a complete sort and tidy. However before the end of the project I got bored and the end result was often worse than the initial condition of my room.

That has sort of followed me right through to now.....I am sitting in my Study which certainly needs some sort of order put to it - but where do I start. This is one of my 'melt-downs'.


The weird this is, I am a pretty structured and logical person but not that great at sorting clutter. Now my husband, that is another matter. He abhors clutter and carefully throws things away that I have pondered over, when I am not looking. I have gone through stages where I have been found going through the rubbish bin trying to find those items I might need in the future...


Well I am on holidays for two weeks and I have some big plans...clutter is going and structure is about to hit my study. But when does something become unneeded? At what stage does that handmade wooden chopping board your daughter made in Grade 8 Woodwork class mean nothing to you any longer? That is a cross between a Melting Moment and Meltdown.


Everything gets put into perspective at that moment in time when you hold that item in your hand and try to determine if it is to be binned or bound for the cupboard again.....

Day One - Melting Moments

Well where do you start? Melting Moments. Why choose such a title for my Blog.

the dictionary Defintion for melting is:-

• to reduce to a liquid state by warmth or heat; fuse: Fire melts ice.
• to cause to pass away or fade.
• to cause to pass, change, or blend gradually.
• to soften in feeling, as a person or the heart.

I am going to blog away through moments in my life where I just melt. Meltdown, my heart melts, my commitment melts away or just moments that I want a passage in time devoted to special melting moments...